The Shepherdess Ministry
Issue 41
One of the
best benefits available to the Christian is that of a fresh start and of those,
as many as you require, indeed every day. The bible says that His mercies are
new every morning. And this is true. Confession, repentance and forgiveness
aside for just a moment, most of our fresh starts should be based on revelation.
If indeed, you have a real relationship with Christ and abide in Him, it should
resemble any human relationship you have in that there is back and forth
communication and fellowship. Now, a relationship with God is far better than
with any person in that it also involves counsel, direction, correction,
wisdom, inspiration, warnings, healing, help, comfort, gifts-everything that is
good for you and will be good for you for the goodness of God endures. What God
calls good endures as good. It should be a good friendship. If this is true and
what you have, then you should be able to express on any given occasion what
areas of your life He is touching and working on, what He is currently training
you in and teaching you. With every fresh revelation, we come up a little
higher in Him. The bible says we are being changed from glory to glory. Now if
you have a vital relationship with Jesus, if He also speaks to you and you
spend time together, you should not fail, not become derailed. Why? Because
there is motion. You should be able to sense His hand on your life in an
overwhelming way. So that no sins, no errors, no mistakes, no warfare, no
condemnation can give you pause or stop you on your way. Maybe you have some
glaring problems; nevertheless, you are going somewhere and there is somewhere
to go in Christ Jesus. God’s main concern with any of your faults is that they
are hampering your way and causing you problems or will. But this is surely not
all His conversation with you for you are called and chosen and God is bringing
you somewhere and into some service. The motion is God’s overall plan for your
life. The bible says that the gifts and callings of God are without repentance.
This motion is your constant, even if your spiritual life is rather up and down
and harried at times. This motion is your comfort. So whereas you might suffer
discouragement, despair, self-pity- this will pull you out of it for this
motion doesn’t cease, God does not cease. Perhaps like you are adrift at sea
and the waves are constantly moving you somewhere, only this is God and God is
precisely taking you. And if you are holding on to paddles, trying to maintain
some control, throw them over board. And when you hear a word, go with it, like
a fresh start- start fresh.
Regarding revelation then, this
week again, I have been meditating
on His lordship in our lives, how our lives are not our own. That when He said
to take up our cross and follow Him, the cross is the death we died to
ourselves and the world. The cross is the day we died to our own desires and
the day we began to live for Him. If your life is not your own and it is His,
if this is in you like a revelatory truth, then you stop looking back and you
humbly submit to the next things He has for you. You look at Him and you look
ahead. You leave your opinions about your circumstances, about the way He has
taken you and all the hurt and complaints that are in you and you leave them at
the cross. And you go on to serve Him. All the stuff that has broken our hearts
at various times, the injustices, even the horrors, things we can never
understand and the not understanding that causes us to stumble, to just drop in
place- where we get stuck... if we could only begin to recognize that these are
the places in our emotions where we need to choose to soldier on, where we must
choose to not draw back. This is the spiritual life. This is the spiritual
battle. This is fighting the good fight of faith. The battle is in our thoughts
and emotions.
I had a problem with this when I first began to serve the
Lord. I would think all these negative thoughts and just spiral all the way
down to hell. It was miserable. One day, in one of those deep holes, God moved
me to call my church during the day time
on a weekday and the lady there told me my problem and after she told me
what I was doing wrong, I began to be able to recognize what was happening and
instead of letting my thoughts and wrong thinking drag me down in misery, I
learned to stop it. The simple answer is that I was not taking my thoughts captive.
"For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal
but mighty in God for pulling down strongholds, casting
down arguments and every high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of
God, bringing every thought into captivity to the obedience of Christ, and
being ready to punish all disobedience when your obedience is
fulfilled."
The bible is our only truth, our hard line. We believe it
more than our own lives, more than our own eyes, more than our own experiences
and more than our own feelings. So we examine every thought and compare it to
the word of God and to what we know of His character and nature and if it does
not line up or pass the test, we cast it down. We cast it out. We do not
entertain these thoughts. We do not run with them. We refuse. Resist the Devil
and He will flee from you. Whether the thought originates from you or is Satan
egging you on in your misery, ALL thoughts are subject to God. We make our
thoughts subject to Him. This is our obedience. This is Christ's obedience. If
you are submitted to Jesus and His Lordship in your life, you will master this.
And you will cast your days at His feet. He is worthy.
Post
script: This week, I had occasion to personally review this in my own life. I
suffered some financial blows this week through no fault of my own and one
afternoon when I woke up from a nap, I started thinking like a foolish person.
I heard God say, “Be careful,” but I was not very careful because I was grieved.
So I spent a miserable afternoon and evening pondering my ill fate. In the
morning, I heard singing in my spirit, it was Jeremy Camp’s Word of Life:
“Speak to my weary heart
Strengthen my broken parts
Lead me to Your open arms
Word of truth
Illuminate all these lies
The enemy speaks inside
In freedom I will rise
Strengthen my broken parts
Lead me to Your open arms
Word of truth
Illuminate all these lies
The enemy speaks inside
In freedom I will rise
'Cause You called me out from the grave
So I can live like I've been changed
There is a new song in my soul
And it begins when I breathe in
Your word of life”
So I can live like I've been changed
There is a new song in my soul
And it begins when I breathe in
Your word of life”
It was so
perfect that I was turned around immediately and forgot everything I said.
Well, I apologized to God first and then forgot all the foolish things I said
when I was distressed and God renewed a right spirit in me. I hope that you too
can hear well enough to be turned around lest things become imbedded through
rehearsal and it become much harder for the truth to penetrate.
God
said “be careful” in this case not because I did not have cause for complaint,
for I did and God did gladly listen to my problems but because when we let negative
thoughts run wild within us, we move out of faith and into fear and misery and
that is not a good place to go, not where God wants us at all. It was a caution
for my good.
Kirsten
Caraway
Email:
Spiritsheepranch@gmail.com